Christina Grimmie, Demi Lovato, Sleeping With Sirens, and Damon Fizzy inspire me everyday. ♥
Sometimes I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness. The type of sadness that fills and consumes every tiny part in your body. It invades your every thought. It hides in every corner and gives you a feeling that there is nothing good in this life. It makes you want to cry, but you know that you can’t because you need to stay strong for others. You can’t let anyone know how much things are getting to you, breaking you down into billions of pieces, turning you into little specks of dust that will blow away in the wind and will never be seen again. Anything can bring this sadness on. You get weaker and weaker knowing that all this work that you’ve gone through is just going to be disregarded and thrown away. As this happens you get pulled farther and farther away from people, and you build your walls higher and higher until you can’t see over these walls. You feel isolated, blocked off, and insecure. You can go from seemingly “happy” to cut off from the rest of the world, isolated, cold, and sad. Perpetually sad without any reason. Not knowing why you feel this way. Trying everything to feel slightly normal, but knowing you never will be able to because you have so much on your shoulders, hanging over your head, and threatening to spill out if you miss a single dose. The worst thing is even after you write it all out, you don’t feel any better. You still feel worthless and full of the overwhelming sadness.